roller coaster

[lunatique]

Maybe it's just PMS, but i'm really having trouble with my mood these days. It's like total roller coaster. I can feel fine one day then absolutely depressed and pissed at the whole world the next. Then i would lose myself in some book and be fine the next morning, but throw a hissy fit at someone the same afternoon.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME???!!! T___T
I really think i should consult someone about depressive tendencies. It's been like this since May. I thought it was because i missed school and my social life, but it's not that. Social life messes me up even more now. >_____________>
I just can't feel HAPPY anymore. I can be peaceful for a while, cheerful some days, but never deeply happy. I think it's because i cannot function without a goal, and that right now i cannot figure out what i wanna do with my life.
AM I HAVING IDENTITY CRISES OR SOMETHING????? T_________T


On a more cheerful note, seii_ryu took me and Amy to this soap shop downtown. LIKE WHOA!! *____* Their soap look like cake!! Soo varied and pretty and natural! ^___^ SOO FRAGRANT my nose hurt!!
I found a Taka!Soap!!*__* It smelled like honey~♥♥
Thank you Nana!!~ u can always make me feel better!~ ^___^

Meeting hamano_ayumi, kimmy16 and arisan tomorrow!~^_^ 12 at Atwater, is that it?? :DDD

Soo tired. Going to watch JDorama now. Gonna spend rest of weekend doing stuff i'm suppose to... >____>

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Yue, your case is definally NOT an identity crisis. It could be chronicle depression, but not identity crisis. I think it's more like the winter's coming messing with our hormones. I'm having the same kind of problem here and my French teacher (who is a man) told me that it's normal and it happends to everybody. Winter's arrival makes people melancholic and unable to feel happiness. Guess it'll settle once winter is fully here: snow = joy!

[disutansu.livejournal.com]

*hugs to you lots* Moods are something we can't control, sadly. ;-; Just hang in there ne?

[aziraphale-mel.livejournal.com]

my cure for not-happy-ness is usually fandom. *______*

but you take care, honey. ♥

[daruki.livejournal.com]

"I think it's because i cannot function without a goal, and that right now i cannot figure out what i wanna do with my life."

...If that's really it, then WE need to talk philosophy one of the days; Do you mean something on the line of a lack of motivation? Like you don't really know what to do in your spare time, no matter how much things there are that you SHOULD do? Always somewhat idle(maybe not)? And the "mood swings"... Do you mean something like you could be okay one sec and totally dark the other for no apparent reason and can sometimes snap back at the least unprovoked comment(you were sorta annoyed)? This might not be too accurate of a "diagnostic"... But if it IS somewhat on the lines of what I've described... Then I think I'm going through the same thing than you are, except that mine has lasted longer than 5 months... >__< You don't seem to have a problem when we meet though, but then again, neither do I...

Man, we gotta talk. ><;