*frustration*

I feel soo very frustrated these days >__>

I really really want to draw, and i know that if i practice seriously i can get much better. I have the motivation, but my hands will not obey, and i cannot draw anything half-way decent enough to motivate me to draw more ;_____________;
There's a lot i want to draw, and many many impending projects, like CG and Tall Tails. I really want to be able to draw some doujinshi or just comic strips, but somehow my body refuses to connect with my mind, and it's very very annoying and frustrating X__X

James, let me channel you just a bit ;__; I'd like to have even 10% of your dedication T__T You have filled 3 sketchbooks since last semester. I haven't done a third of mine... >__>
I freeze in front of a blank page...T__T

I hope this is just a stage of artist block or something...*kicks it* I really want to practice, but my won't my hand work with me? .__.


EDIT: I am now convinced that my pencil case, that i have heartlessly forgotten abandonned at Dreamer's house is holding a grudge agaisnt me and is sending me bad, unartsy vibes T____T It didn't forgive me for forgetting it a second time there because i was too busy oogling at Helios and Hermes, Dreamer's incredibly swooningly adorable new fishies ... >___>

EDIT 2:
*Worships the wonderfully, amazingly, breath-takingly inspirationnal work of CLAMP* They are sooo ...perfect *__* my idols!!~
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